Self-conscious.
Am I not good enough?
Am I afraid of myself?
Afraid of lack?
Afraid of how lame I am?
Seolah terngiang kata-kata Morgan Hawke:
Jangan sok tahu, be an expert.
Jangan menggurui kalau masih hijau.
Bergema pula kata-kata Steve Pavlina:
Jangan ngawur, be useful.
Jangan harap banyak kalau tak bermanfaat.
Sok tahu.
Bagaimana kalau keliru?
Banyak omong lu.
Gue emang sengaja.
Nggak berguna.
Wasted.
It’s true.
I’m holding the truth.
I learn to face it.
Boldly. Bravely. Courageously.
I know I’m lame.
I’m still learning.
Let me try, let me fail, let me die.
Let me learn from my mistakes.
Rise from the ashes like a phoenix.
Flying up, up, up to the sky.
